Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
To my ex-dear friend Jacky Frost,
It is so weird how much things can change in such a little space of time. One moment life seems so perfect, and then suddenly the next it all goes completely and utterly wrong. If I could turn back time to when things were good, I wouldn’t. Because as everyone knows, everything happens for a reason, but in a way I would because then I could enjoy how our friendship was again, without drama, hate or regret.
Looking back, I’m not sure what even happened between us. You were crying the whole time over losing me, but you made no effort to stay close. So you made people think I was a bitch for making you cry, when I didn’t even have a clue why the hell you were until the next night. You didn’t even tell anyone why you were upset, apart from that it was my fault :/ Never knew you could be hated for not doing anything.
At this stage I am angry, and upset, but mostly angry. Every time I get an inbox, I have some hope that it will be from you saying something, anything. I also don’t want you to even try to talk to me, though, because I know, that if we make up, It will all happen all over again.
But do you know what hurts the most? Its that we made all those promises, didn't we? We promised eachother that we would never ever leave the other. You cried when I told you I would never leave you, because we both felt like this was it, this was a true friendship, a real friendship that would never end. But I guess we broke our promises, and that is what hurts the most, because I want to keep my promises that I make, but I havn't this time. And it kills.
So Jacky, I love you more than life, and that won't ever change, and I hope you still love me. I remember that text you sent me after our second last fight. You said "I would rather disapear off the face of the earth then lose you to another person." But maybe that was all bull shit, because you don't care anymore.
So goodbye Jacky, enjoy your life, and I will always be here for you, somewhere, somehow.